"Skinny"

This will not be a long post. It's a little self-indulgent, actually. But it is such a wonderful feeling to accidentally stumble on a pro-anorexia "thinspiration" blog, look at those photographs, and realize that I have absolutely no desire to look like those poor girls. To realize that my ideal body now is two things: strong and healthy. I just wanted to say that to someone, because I'm happy. I've been having guilt about having guilt about eating and it was driving me up a wall, but you know, things could be so much worse. I have been so much worse. I am so much further than I was. I'm okay. I'm doing okay. And I'm okay with that.